at certain point of time we will receive revelations in life
for the past days i've been thinking about what happened these few weeks over and over again
particularly abt what he said
im so scared i thought it's hard to continue
wherever i was whenever i thought abt those words i felt like crying
but again your assurance gave me so much hope and strength

your words kept recurring in my mind. and yes i was blinded by...
i dunno. i always thought because of your change in attitude that made me temperamental but now i admit that it is me who's changed. i was different from the past. my attitude changed unknowingly. i yearn for reciprocal for what i've given and it shldnt be like this. and many other indescribable thinkings that made me more impatient than i was. and afterall my question is what's the point in arguing? i dont know why i argued.

i promise i'll try to control, i'll change back slowly; for you, for the hope and promise you've given me. i hope i wont disappoint anyone again.
yest i saw a girl sitting alone in a wheelchair. as i walked pass her i felt so blessed to be able to stand on both feet and move around freely. i have an able body, perfect families, gd frens and a loving boy. what more do i lack? the important lesson is to be satisfied and contented with what i have now. then i'll be much more happier.